Last night I watched a re-run of Greys Anatomy and the following quote by Miranda Bailey inspired this post, “I’m busy holding myself together with tape and glue… you are too much for me right now because I am busy with the tape and the glue.”
I loved it and understood what she meant. Sometimes in life we are too busy putting our selves back together with tape and glue we refuse to stop to see what is around us.
Damaged. We are left so damaged we are scare to death to try again. Damaged over a break up, the loss of a loved one, or something we love. We are left damaged.
We feel broken into pieces and unable to pick them up, unable to put anything back together, unable to care for what is next. We are left hopeless for any possibilities of goodness. We think everything is gone and ruined. We feel so lost, so alone, so empty, almost dead.
And we cry. We cry in silence. We cry out loud when we are alone. We cry in corners, in bathrooms, in our closed offices, in our secret places, in our sleep and when we are wide awake. We cry because we need it, because we do not what else to do, and because there is nothing else to do. We cry because we need to feel human, alive and because we are vulnerable
Tape and glue. We pretend tape and glue fixes everything, holds everything together and will make things okay. But it doesn’t. It never does. We try tirelessly but tape and glue will never be enough for one damaged heart.
Do not depend on tape and glue to take away your scars. Do not depend on others to fix you. It never works. And if it does it will only be temporary. Tape and glue is only temporary.
Find strength in you to be okay, to heal, to feel, to survive and move on
The scars may stay but the pain eventually goes away… I promise you it does.